Friday, January 28, 2005

behold the return...

it's seriously been a while since i've's funny really how there seems to be like lots of interesting happenings, both bitter and sweet in my life and tons of thought running through my head on stuff to enlighten those "selected few" who happen to chance upon my blog due to unforeseen circumstances or by some unlucky intervention of fate when i lost the internet connection for a stupid WHOLE unusually slow week which made me think why the internet is so stupidly tempting anyway when i have lots of other considerable "important" stuff to do and yet lose the inspiration when i'm back, which btw, i hope you understand what i'm crapping since this mad rambling on is without the all-important punctuation mark of a period and i'm sure this sentence is so gramatically and structurally incorrect english teachers will cringe and shake their heads with diapproval while reading, which is silly as there's no way in heaven or the certain region underground, a teacher would find this. There, a full-stop (.) ,finally.

Forgive me k, it was merentas desa day for goodness sake!
AND i'm such a good student...running and all...not bad least got points for it..
one : to contribute to panglima (Yea rite!) and
two : to lose a teeny weeny bit of weight for tomorrow (yeap! purple ppl reunion tomorrow ppl! ) which is useless as i ate nasi lemak for lunch, 2 packets of nasi lemak (again!) for dinner;topped with a piece of Porno Chicken..which caused me to gain more than i lose...Unfortunately.

finally, its D-Day tomorrow...worst case scenario, everyone will mind their own business with nothing to talk of but at least there'll be food rite! and friends to humour me..i'm depending on you guys, esther n li wei! i can't wait...will update on the happenings tomorow IF i'm in the mood.
Just my luck i have to got to school early in the morn tomorrow for 2 stuff some more...i feel bad i have to leave and not join the prefect's unity tomorrow i'm guilt-ridden! Not so much as that, maybe just a drop of guilt.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005


why can't the school let us enjoy the chinese new year holidays? why?! why?!! ...Must they set the exams date on the 14th which is like immediately after the hols..and the 15 days of celebration ain't even over yet!
shit la...i'm beginning to feel the exams pressure on me back, thanks in no small part to teachers making me feel quilty and scaring the hell out of me.. and its seriously weighing me down like a stupid sack of chemistry books.. and its only like, what..not even end of january yet? i hate this feeling of helplessness and constant worry about whether i'd be able to finish studying.
I want to get into a good U and be able to study the course of my choice, not some course predetermined by whoever it is in the education ministry who decides who gets what, which is only logical since it's MY life anyway. And to the fellas who decides these things unfairly, you only get ONE life ya know.
so, it all boils down to results.
and that's sad..bacause a piece of paper doesn't really determine success in life but despite all that, that piece of paper is ultimately very valuable.
so, so, silly.

Saturday, January 08, 2005

somethin bout my soul..

hmm...according to this : ,
i am :

A Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

i guess there's some truth in it..i dunno...but letting a programme determine my soul?

1st week of sekolah

my first week of school and its so surprisingly hectic that i'm suffering from a brain overload right now. Adding salt to that injury is the return of Beloved homework, homework lovely homework..I mean, who was i kidding thinking that there'll be no lessons for at least a few days, leaving me free to lepak and talk. STAR has dedicated teachers and for the record, i mean that in a good sense. i think.
Quite satisfied with prefectorial duties...So Far. especially with the tsunami fund..Starians are really a generous bunch!
Quite satisfied with my place in the class. It's under the fan. 'nuff said!
Quite satisfied with the amount of noise generated in the class..thanks to a noisy bunch at the back, inclusive of least not so boring;working wonders in keeping me awake.
Not satisfied with constant reminders of STPM by teachers..i know i know, its for my own good. but still.

party ppl its friday night..frriii-dayy..
shucks have to do hw tmr morn.
what the.

Monday, January 03, 2005

messy thoughts..

life is full of unexpected twists; and yet it bores the hell out of you...for me, at least. I dislike routine;for example being woken up from slumberland early in the morning, away from the warmth of me blankie towards the toilet..the thought of it! But being a taurean, stability is important to me. I want excitement! but not too much, in case of a sudden heart attack or massive migraines.. contradictions !

I want to live for a meaning;a cause, to leave a legacy befitting of a human being..I want to end sufferings, end poverty, end disillusionment. I want to be ME without thinking of what others think. I want to be able to say NO without the be a good friend, daughter and citizen. OMG i sound like a contestant for a beauty pagaent or something.
but really, all true..and i'm sure all of them'll say the same thing but lets give them the benefit of the doubt, shall we.

and as much as i would want to deny it,
i can't help feeling like i'm matrerialistic at times and i don't wish to be one. I guess i'll just have to learn to be more grateful and not want too much.
in the words of worshipped, U2 from fav song Beautiful Day

"What you don't have you don't need it now

What you don't know you can feel it somehow""

or something like that .

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Thought provoking stuff...this

Always forgive your enemies;nothing annoys them so much.
-Oscar Wilde-

I am not young enough to know everything.
-Oscar Wilde-

One should always play fairly when one has the winning cards.
-Oscar Wilde-

Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes.
-Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere's Fan, 1892, Act III-

It was such a lovely day I thought it a pity to get up
-W. Somerset Maugham-

People ask for criticism, but they only want praise.
-W. Somerset Maugham-

I daresay one profits more by the mistakes one makes off one's own bat than by doing the right thing on somebody's else advice.
-W. Somerset Maugham, 'Of Human Bondage', 1915-

end of part 1

courtesy of

Saturday, January 01, 2005


Had baskin robbins with family just now for dessert after a wonderful meal of steamboat..on a rainy day..yummy! no wonder i'm getting horizontally challenged!
I love spending time with family, though they Do get on my nerves and i know for sure that I get on their nerves many a times..more times probably..

oh man!
school's up soon
i haven't had the chance to enjoy my hols &
and i haven't touched my homework!

stooopid me...cari pasal..leave it to the last minute some more la! cis..
someone help me..i don't want to wake up early and i don't want to study

tomorrow's sunday...and the day after is monday..
argh !

i hope everyone else is looking forward to school unlike moi...
happy schooling!

i'm addicted to nat king cole
must be one of the signs i'm getting older...nOooooOOOooOO